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I

Like an adventurous sea-farer am I,

Who hath some long and dang’rous voyage been,

 And called to tell of his discovery,

How far he sailed, what countries he had seen,

Proceeding from the port whence he put forth,

Shows by his compass how his course he steered,

When east, when west, when south, and when by north,

As how the pole to every place was reared,

What capes he doubled, of what continent,

The gulfs and straits that strangely he had past,

Where most becalmed, where with foul weather spent,

And on what rocks in peril to be cast:

Thus in my love, time calls me to relate

My tedious travels and oft-varying fate.

II

My heart was slain, and none but you and I;

Who should I think the murder should commit?

Since but yourself there was no creature by

But only I, guiltless of murdering it.

It slew itself; the verdict on the view

Do quit the dead, and me not accessary.

Well, well, I fear it will be proved by you,

The evidence so great a proof doth carry.

But O see, see, we need inquire no further!

Upon your lips the scarlet drops are found,

And in your eye the boy that did the murder,

Your cheeks yet pale since first he gave the wound!

By this I see, however things be past,

Yet heaven will still have murder out at last.

III

Taking my pen, with words to cast my woe,

Duly to count the sum of all my cares,

I find my griefs innumerable grow,

The reck’nings rise to millions of despairs.

And thus dividing of my fatal hours,

The payments of my love I read and cross;

Subtracting, set my sweets unto my sours,

My joys’ arrearage leads me to my loss.

And thus mine eyes a debtor to thine eye,

Which by extortion gaineth all their looks,

My heart hath paid such grievous usury,

That all their wealth lies in thy beauty’s books.

And all is thine which hath been due to me,

And I a bankrupt, quite undone by thee.

IV

Bright star of beauty, on whose eyelids sit

A thousand nymph-like and enamoured graces,

The goddesses of memory and wit,

Which there in order take their several places;

In whose dear bosom, sweet delicious love

Lays down his quiver which he once did bear,

Since he that blessèd paradise did prove,

And leaves his mother’s lap to sport him there

Let others strive to entertain with words

My soul is of a braver mettle made;

I hold that vile which vulgar wit affords;

In me’s that faith which time cannot invade.

Let what I praise be still made good by you;

Be you most worthy whilst I am most true!

V

Nothing but «No!» and «I!» and «I!» and «No!»

«How falls it out so strangely?» you reply. I tell ye,

Fair, I’ll not be answered so,

With this affirming «No!» denying «I!

«I say «I love!» You slightly answer «I!«I say «You love!»

You pule me out a «No!«I say «I die!»

You echo me with «I!»«Save me!»

I cry; you sigh me out a «No!

«Must woe and I have naught but «No!» and «I!»?

No «I!» am I, if I no more can have.

Answer no more; with silence make reply,

And let me take myself what I do crave;

Let «No!» and «I!» with I and you be so,

Then answer «No!» and «I!» and «I!» and «No!»

VI

How many paltry, foolish, painted things,

That now in coaches trouble every street,

Shall be forgotten, whom no poet sings,

Ere they be well wrapped in their winding sheet!

Where I to thee eternity shall give,

When nothing else remaineth of these days,

And queens hereafter shall be glad to live

Upon the alms of thy superfluous praise;

Virgins and matrons reading these my rhymes,

Shall be so much delighted with thy story,

That they shall grieve they lived not in these times,

To have seen thee, their sex’s only glory.

So shalt thou fly above the vulgar throng,

Still to survive in my immortal song.

VII

Love, in a humour, played the prodigal,

And bade my senses to a solemn feast;

Yet more to grace the company withal,

Invites my heart to be the chiefest guest.

No other drink would serve this glutton’s turn,

But precious tears distilling from mine eyne,

Which with my sighs this epicure doth burn,

Quaffing carouses in this costly wine;

Where, in his cups, o’ercome with foul excess,

Straightways he plays a swaggering ruffian’s part,

And at the banquet in his drunkenness,

Slew his dear friend, my kind and truest heart.

A gentle warning, friends, thus may you see,

What ’tis to keep a drunkard company!

VIII

There’s nothing grieves me but that age should haste,

That in my days I may not see thee old;

That where those two clear sparkling eyes are placed,

Only two loopholes that I might behold;

 That lovely archèd ivory-polished brow

Defaced with wrinkles, that I might but see;

Thy dainty hair, so curled and crispèd now,

Like grizzled moss upon some agèd tree;

Thy cheek now flush with roses, sunk and lean;

Thy lips, with age as any wafer thin!

Thy pearly teeth out of thy head so clean,

That when thou feed’st thy nose shall touch thy chin!

These lines that now thou scornst, which should delight thee,

Then would I make thee read but to despite thee.

IX

As other men, so I myself do muse

Why in this sort I wrest invention so,

And why these giddy metaphors I use,

Leaving the path the greater part do go.

I will resolve you. I’m a lunatic;

And ever this in madmen you shall find,

What they last thought of when the brain grew sick,

In most distraction they keep that in mind.

Thus talking idly in this bedlam fit,

Reason and I, you must conceive, are twain;

«Tis nine years now since first I lost my wit.

Bear with me then though troubled be my brain.

With diet and correction men distraught,

Not too far past, may to their wits be brought.

X

To nothing fitter can I thee compare

Than to the son of some rich penny-father,

Who having now brought on his end with care,

Leaves to his son all he had heaped together.

This new rich novice, lavish of his chest,

To one man gives, doth on another spend;

Then here he riots; yet amongst the rest,

Haps to lend some to one true honest friend.

Thy gifts thou in obscurity dost waste:

False friends, thy kindness born but to deceive thee;

Thy love that is on the unworthy placed;

Time hath thy beauty which with age will leave thee.

Only that little which to me was lent,

I give thee back when all the rest is spent.

XI

You’re not alone when you are still alone;

O God! from you that I could private be!

Since you one were, I never since was one;

Since you in me, myself since out of me.

Transported from myself into your being,

Though either distant, present yet to either;

Senseless with too much joy, each other seeing;

And only absent when we are together.

Give me my self, and take your self again!

Devise some means but how I may forsake you!

So much is mine that doth with you remain,

That taking what is mine, with me I take you.

You do bewitch me! O that I could fly

From my self you, or from your own self I!

TO THE SOUL

XII

That learned Father which so firmly proves

The soul of man immortal and divine,

And doth the several offices defineAnima.

Gives her that name, as she the body moves.Amor.

Then is she love, embracing charity.Animus.

Moving a will in us, it is the mind; Mens.

Retaining knowledge, still the same in kind.Memoria.

As intellectual, it is memory. Ratio.

In judging, reason only is her name.Sensus.

In speedy apprehension, it is sense.Conscientia.

In right and wrong they call her conscience; Spiritus.

The spirit, when it to God-ward doth inflame:

These of the soul the several functions be,

Which my heart lightened by thy love doth see

TO THE SHADOW

XIII

Letters and lines we see are soon defaced

Metals do waste and fret with canker’s rust,

The diamond shall once consume to dust,

And freshest colours with foul stains disgraced;

Paper and ink can paint but naked words,

To write with blood of force offends the sight;

And if with tears, I find them all too light,

And sighs and signs a silly hope affords.

O sweetest shadow, how thou serv’st my turn!

Which still shalt be as long as there is sun,

Nor whilst the world is never shall be done;

Whilst moon shall shine or any fire shall burn,

That everything whence shadow doth proceed,

May in his shadow my love’s story read.

HIS REMEDY FOR LOVE

XV

Since to obtain thee nothing me will stead,

I have a med’cine that shall cure my love.

The powder of her heart dried, when she’s dead,

That gold nor honour ne’er had power to move;

Mixed with her tears that ne’er her true love crost,

Nor at fifteen ne’er longed to be a bride;

Boiled with her sighs, in giving up the ghost,

That for her late deceasèd husband died;

Into the same then let a woman breathe,

That being chid did never word reply;

With one thrice married’s prayers, that did bequeath

A legacy to stale virginity.

If this receipt have not the power to win me,

Little I’ll say, but think the devil’s in me!

AN ALLUSION TO THE PHŒNIX

XVI

«Mongst all the creatures in this spacious round

Of the birds’ kind, the phœnix is alone,

Which best by you of living things is known;

None like to that, none like to you is found!

Your beauty is the hot and splend’rous sun;

The precious spices be your chaste desire,

Which being kindled by that heavenly fire,

Your life, so like the phœnix’s begun.

Yourself thus burnèd in that sacred flame,

With so rare sweetness all the heavens perfuming;

Again increasing as you are consuming,

Only by dying born the very same.

And winged by fame you to the stars ascend;

So you of time shall live beyond the end.

TO TIME

XVII

Stay, speedy time! Behold, before thou pass

From age to age, what thou hast sought to see,

One in whom all the excellencies be,

In whom heaven looks itself as in a glass.

Time, look thou too in this translucent glass,

And thy youth past in this pure mirror see!